a bit of bliss and mayhem

Sunsets, Spring & Losing my Mind

Have you ever truly thought you were going bat shit crazy? Like check me into a mental clinic and med me up so that the feeling of drowning and the tears stop and the complete sense of loss of control can go? That was me. 5 weeks ago. 5 weeks ago, I hit the lowest of lows where my body gave in to the heightened stress and sadness and panic and anger and hopelessness that had been building and building where it got to a point where I couldn’t talk. I would sit underneath the shower for I have no... Read more →

You, are my Beloved

The tangle web of unfortunate events has been a cause for my quietness on here of late. Read more →

Seeking out the Algorithm Ego Booster and Detoxing from it

I’ve been playing the social media scene now since 2012. That’s six years now that I have been sharing, posting, sharing, posting. I had to scroll and scroll back to find my first profile pic. Circa 2012 Time shows the most in our kids hey? When you’re with them day in, day out, you don’t see them grow. This guy is now a good head size taller than me. It’s 5am here. The house is quiet. My fire has still got a glow of red, which quickly turned into a rebirthed fireball quite quickly. I’ve made my first coffee for... Read more →

Call yourself a writer, hey?

Can you call yourself a writer when you haven’t written for four months? I swear I think of blog posts every morning I do, I really, really do. I wake up at 6am, make my coffee, wander out to my porch and watch the sun rise. This has been my daily ritual since we moved to the country. My porch has the perfect position for watching the sun creeping up over the horizon as is shines a gorgeous glow of pink in the sky. But what to write, hey? When there are so many things to say but opening the... Read more →

You must be crazy!

"You must be crazy!" I heard a lot of this when we announced that we had bought a farm, in an area that we had never lived in before. "Arn't you scared you won't like it there?" " What are you guys gonna do?" "You've never lived anywhere other than Melbourne, won't you miss it?" "You won't have town water, or natural gas. How on earth are you going to cope?" " A septic tank, omg yuck" The questions and opinions and doubts that were thrown our way in the lead up to our big move was never ending. Some... Read more →

Greetings from the Country

Hola! Why, hello 2018. You've sprung up ever so quickly. It has been a very long time since I last logged onto the back end of this blog and pressed the "new post" button. 7 months to be exact. A lot can happen in 7 months, let me tell you. My little family made a decision not long after the last post, that creating more time to spend with each other was our priority. The commute for both our jobs, hours spent away from home was taking it's toll. Chasing our tail and falling in an exhausted heap to wake... Read more →

The Jungle. An open letter to you.

To my dearest-sweet-beautiful person in my life, I've been quiet. I have also been distant, refrained and at times non-contactable. See, this anxiety beast that has grown over the last two years; it has been playing havoc with my insides. There are many times and days where I feel aokay, I am on top of the world - I smile, dance and laugh - and then this tiny burning feeling starts growing deep in my chest and it all comes crashing down around me - even if you cannot see it on the outside. I understand, dearest-sweet-beautiful person in my... Read more →

The highlight reel that is rarely shared.

Social Media, has evolved to slowly encompass most facets of our lives. We "check in" most days, scroll through our feed, "like" along the way and for many of us, it has become a habitual part of our daily routine. There is so much good to be said about Social Media. Providing instant connections, all over the world, having us all aware pretty much instantaneously of the happenings with a minute by minute breakdown if we wish to see. It's like having a daily get together with all your buddies and you having the peak hole into all their worlds... Read more →

Find your village

Do you ever wonder when you are sitting in traffic or on the train, what the people around you lives are like? I do. All the time. The human condition fascinates me, how people tick and what make them tick. It’s like thinking about the world – and then thinking how were are in our galaxy, then the universe. Once you start thinking about it, it gets bigger and bigger. Same, with people. It just gets bigger and bigger when you stop and think about it. And then you break it down, like right down to your own immediate circle.... Read more →

I have Liberty

This came up on my news feed recently: If you don't follow Cate, you should. We have a commonality with our care for humanity, connection to Bali, empathy and in the wonderful words of Cate, "just be fkn kind, okay?" Now, I try to see life with a cup half full , you know? However, don't be confused by my smile and in most, happy persona to not have the ability to become enraged, disgusted, angry when the need arises. My god, this post stirred up so many feels for me. I felt such anger towards this cock-head that had... Read more →